Big Change

 We all know what a quiet, demure person little Chubbs is

But today when I told her that it was my last last day of work...the last day to leave her to go to school, teaching high school band, orchestra and piano theory.....that we would get so much more time together...laughing...talking...playing....

this was her response:

It would seem that she approves.

and yes, she has an insane amount of super sharp teeth....yesterday she ate a frozen grape Popsicle...not just licked...but ate........I digress

This is kind of a big day. For so long, I've been 110% about music. It was all I did- it was all I focused on. (Yes, I never claimed to be a cool, hip person...but if you find those words synonymous with the phrase band geek, then we're all good)

Ever since Addison was born, she opened my eyes to the fact that there's more to life than music and practicing.

Honestly, ever since dealing with all of her medical issues and the drama of this past year, I have felt my intense zeal and passion for music slowly fade. In its place, I have been filled with a burning desire to take care of and protect Addison, helping to make this world a more accepting place for her to grown up in.

Wanting more time with Addison, and needing more time to spend on my book, and let's face it- in September I'm going to have 2 kids under 2- it was time to step aside from teaching and focus on my other really great jobs- mother and wife.

I'm excited for the change and new opportunities. I'm terrified at the thought of cutting down to one paycheck.

So many emotions were going into today that I woke up this morning almost completely broken out in hives. After many calls in to my doctor's office, it was determined to be just an allergic reaction to a medication that they had me on last week, but still...I think it represents what mixed emotions I have about this day.

Making the switch to stay at home mom is difficult and exhilarating all at the same time.

This summer, I will be doing some PR work for my husband's business while continuing to work on my book, so I have a short transition time before the true stay at home mom status hits in September, but this is definitely the first step.

Now if you will excuse me, I get to go play with my super cute baby...attempt to feed her while avoiding those sharp teeth with all appendages...bath her and hope that more water stays in the tub than ends up on the floor this time....have story time and wrestle/standy up time on the bed....

and then after she's all tucked in and babysitter ready, go out on a date with my husband who finally has ONE NIGHT FREE, celebrating this big change in our lives.

Maybe someday I'll go back to being a music teacher, but for now?

I plan on being 110% about taking care of my family and house responsibilities...(is it OK if 90% of that is playing and laughing with Chubbs??????)

The fact that the cleaning expectation around my house is giong up terrifies this clutteraholic.....gulp

*Checkout my guest post over at The-Not-So-Secret Confessions of a Second Time Mom.